~~I Remember When~~
When Lauren passed away my world fell
apart. I am trying to piece it back
together little by little. I often
wondered if God listened to me when
I talked to Him, well, now I know He
does, He proved it. Here is my story....
Since Lauren left us I catch myself
staring at little girls about her age
and longing to hold them in my arms, I
really have to watch my self so that
people don't think I'm some kind of
a weirdo, I just feel this need to
hold a little nine year old girl
in my arms.
I work in a restaurant and have been
there almost 12 years. I know a lot
of the regulars but many I have just
spoken to in passing. About 4 1/2
months after Lauren died I was at
work on a Saturday afternoon.
A mother and her daughter came in
to eat lunch and I waited on them.
I had seen these two a few times before,
but had never had a conversation with
them. I found myself staring at the
little girl and wanting to hug her
so badly. When I realized this, I
tried to look at her out of the corner
of my eye so they wouldn't notice.
This went on for a little while and
then I had this very strong urge to
tell this mother about Lauren. I don't
usually tell strangers about her, but
the feeling would not go away. I just
wanted to share Lauren with her so badly.
Something kept prodding me to go to that
table and tell her, I kept talking myself
out of it, and I didn't want to upset the
Finally I saw the little girl get up from
the table and I thought, here's your
chance, I almost didn't go but a stronger
force pushed me and I am so glad it did.
I went to the table and asked the mother how old her child was
and she said that she was 10 years old.
Some how through my tears I managed to get
out the words that I wanted to say. She
told me how sorry she was and I knew it
was genuine. She asked me how it happened
and I told her, then she began to tell me
that her daughter had also lost a friend
the same way. I told her how sorry I was
to hear that.
I have one of those picture frame keychains
with Lauren's photos in it and I took it out
to show her my Angel. About that time her
daughter returned to the table, she took one
look at the picture and said "That's Lauren,
she's my best friend".
It turns out that Lauren and Nichole
(the little girl) played together when
they visited their Dads who live in the
same neighborhood, the mother had never
met Lauren. They had played together the
day before the accident ( they rode her
pink go cart).
I really began to cry then, I asked Nichole
if I could have a hug and she gladly obliged
(I got several more that day). I believe I
was prompted into telling them about Lauren
from a much higher realm. I thank God daily
for putting Nichole and her mother right there
when I needed a sign and a hug. Now I know that
He does listen and that strengthened my faith and
continues to do so. Lauren touched many people
in her short life and continues to from her new
Angel Hugs to You...Nichole
..Nanny loves you Lauren...
Sweet dreams my sweet Angel
...Till we meet again...
In His Precious Name
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